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Day 101: Something is going to go wrong.
I have been editing/correcting this very tedious file for last 6 hours, and when it was completed I was in relief, but behold, within minutes, I would accidentally delete it, unlike in Window 10, in Linux, recovering a deleted file is not trivial. Its gone. I have to redo the whole thing again. wow.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that something will go wrong as I approach success.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this imaginary failure on my mind all the time, as if its only a mater of time before activating.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear success and within that create mistakes, failures just to postpone or deny success.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear succeeding.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes. I made a mistake today, as I didnt’ pay attention when I deleted the file, I was on auto-mode, unconscious, unaware, not breathing, not here. So I paid the price. This can be corrected, its not a curse, not a life sentence, simply matter of breathing, and staying here thru the tedious editing process.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize, mistakes are chances to learn and do better next time. I am not dead, just lost few hours of labor.
But what’s obvious is that during the tedious editing process, I would wonder off in my mind, let the editing be automatic, not here, not breathing, this is what eventually created the mistake. so I stop beating myself up on this, learn and correct, be here, with awareness.
I commit myself to see mistakes as lessons, reminders, stepping stones to improve and correct myself, I can definitely do better, remain focused here. Yes time as past is lost, that’s the consequence, but there will be another time to correct this.
I embrace myself, my mistakes, without beating myself up, and direct myself to step by step, breath by breath, to put in the time and effort again to reproduce the file.
Just like recreating this world, rebirthing life on earth, I realize it will require my diligent presence here, with awareness to direct the moment, so less mistakes, and more success can be produced.
Interestingly turn around the word file, it becomes life. I forgive myself for not seen/realizing even the file I touched, is actually life, made of life substance, alive, its here, equal and one as life as me, so I direct myself to honor and be present when I am working even with a file.
Life requires my presence here.