Day 25: When will anger stop?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize anger is abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize when I throw anger at others I am abusing myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe its ok to throw anger at family members.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify anger and believe its ok within family context.

I forgive myself that I have accepted allowed myself to abuse those who are close to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that its ok to abuse family members.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat family members like shit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize how I treat others is an exact mirror of how I treat myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself, this is more evident in how I abuse others, those who are close to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have a right to abuse family members, its given, granted, no questions asked, I can abuse them at will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize until self-abuse is dealt with, abuse in this world cannot end, as this world is a reflection of what we do unto ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of my childhood where receiving anger was ample, within these memories I still hold onto anger and justify showing anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others abused me, but never understood their mindsets or situations they were in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize the unguided mind, the machine that it is, lack of self-awareness, deep seated brainwashing and pre-programming lives, genetic, cultural, environmental, and economic factors all played a role in why a person becomes an abuser in life. I see/realize self-responsibility was unheard for ages, within that the sins of the forefathers came down generations and still continue to cause abuse, to this day.

But how and when will this abuse end? This is my journey to life, to end all abuse within myself. stop being an abuser basically.

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